Hearing Beethoven And I keep passing by the liquor stores
Well, I did it yet one more time. I passed A-1 Liquors on route 4 in Fair Lawn, NJ without stopping and getting a shot-bottle of scotch and a diet coke. And as long as I'm able to do so, I don't think I'll go back to AA. I don't have much untreated alcoholism in my life after years of "recovery." The only thing that really makes me angry these days is the narrow-mindedness of AA and other religious organizations. I tried it out last night, going to a meeting, and didn't even make it through the reading of How It Works.
Someone did call and say that he was glad to see me, but wished I would have stayed. Meetings make me want to drink, so I shouldn't go. I shouldn't go to places that make me angry and after 18 years of AA I feel as thought it's time again to change playmates a playgounds. Thanks for the last post, we can have our own meetings. I want this site to be more of a help to those who are irritated, just as I am, and we can stay sober together. You don't have to go to meetings. Sure, meetings work for the majority of sober people, but they're not for everyone. I choose a different route today. I'm not saying that someday I won't go to a meeting, but today I want to stay sober my way and I'm sober right now. My family gives me support and my friends outside of AA. And I try really hard to make a step toward sobriety and not engage in activities that cause me set backs.
I think you have to generate a feeling of magnanimity in your heart to stay sober; that's what saves us. That's why I passed the liquor store today, I feel good in the center of my chest. And even if I don't feel good, I can return there in time by staying sober and trying to do what if right, and just relaxing and letting go of problems.
I went to Carol's home after I left the meeting last night and she said, "you use me for support don't you?" I know she won't let me down and will always be there if I need her and guess what, I'll can be there for her too.
I really did some thinking last night and thought about AA's 12th step and how you hear people in the rooms talk about it like they actually work it. Huh! When I went out all of my friend dumped me like a bad habit. When I got sick I found out who my real friend were. Kate, Joan, Carol and my family and that was it. Nobody from my homegroup even gave a shit enough to call. So tell me again why I need AA. There is this one guy who call though, maybe we can become friends.
Well, I did it yet one more time. I passed A-1 Liquors on route 4 in Fair Lawn, NJ without stopping and getting a shot-bottle of scotch and a diet coke. And as long as I'm able to do so, I don't think I'll go back to AA. I don't have much untreated alcoholism in my life after years of "recovery." The only thing that really makes me angry these days is the narrow-mindedness of AA and other religious organizations. I tried it out last night, going to a meeting, and didn't even make it through the reading of How It Works.
Someone did call and say that he was glad to see me, but wished I would have stayed. Meetings make me want to drink, so I shouldn't go. I shouldn't go to places that make me angry and after 18 years of AA I feel as thought it's time again to change playmates a playgounds. Thanks for the last post, we can have our own meetings. I want this site to be more of a help to those who are irritated, just as I am, and we can stay sober together. You don't have to go to meetings. Sure, meetings work for the majority of sober people, but they're not for everyone. I choose a different route today. I'm not saying that someday I won't go to a meeting, but today I want to stay sober my way and I'm sober right now. My family gives me support and my friends outside of AA. And I try really hard to make a step toward sobriety and not engage in activities that cause me set backs.
I think you have to generate a feeling of magnanimity in your heart to stay sober; that's what saves us. That's why I passed the liquor store today, I feel good in the center of my chest. And even if I don't feel good, I can return there in time by staying sober and trying to do what if right, and just relaxing and letting go of problems.
I went to Carol's home after I left the meeting last night and she said, "you use me for support don't you?" I know she won't let me down and will always be there if I need her and guess what, I'll can be there for her too.
I really did some thinking last night and thought about AA's 12th step and how you hear people in the rooms talk about it like they actually work it. Huh! When I went out all of my friend dumped me like a bad habit. When I got sick I found out who my real friend were. Kate, Joan, Carol and my family and that was it. Nobody from my homegroup even gave a shit enough to call. So tell me again why I need AA. There is this one guy who call though, maybe we can become friends.